Heart of steel

Right here, right now, I feel released. I think I might have fallen for the wrong person. What your feelings are towards me now, it is reciprocated. Actually now I think I can understand how he feels not wanting to see me. Frankly, after all those SMSes, I don't either. I don't and probably won't ever ask him out for lunch again either. He'll be happy to know that. It's too tiring to ask him out. It doesn't bother me now. But I know it's crucial that this go through tomorrow. I need to know the facts, hurting or not. Because I will not hurt myself anymore, whether or not emotionally or physically. It was stupid to hurt myself but I know I was escaping. No more.

I will get over him. I WANT to get over him. My friends are right, he is not worth it. I know to him I'm not worth it either.

These are my thoughts now. I hope they won't change drastically tomorrow. I have greater hopes for tomorrow. I hope he will cooperate. It is going to be a tiring day.