Wish

I think of all that I've done to him, all the hurt that I've caused, all that fear, insecurity, almost driving him to insanity. I really wish for one thing. I wish I'd never known him. I wish I never did that blog search. I wish I never visited his blog. I wish I never left a comment. I wish he was still the way he was, happy without me. That's more than one wish, but I really wish for those.